But he knew that something else was going on and sure enough, as Emma waited for the kettle and read the paper, she suddenly said—

‘I’ve just got my period.’

‘When?’ he asked.

‘Just now,’ she said, with studied calm. ‘I could feel it coming on.’

‘Oh well,’ he said, and Emma continued to make coffee, her back to him.

He stood to wrap his arms around her waist and lightly kissed the nape of her neck, still damp from the shower. She didn’t look up from the newspaper. ‘Doesn’t matter. We’ll try again, yeah?’ he said, standing there with his chin on her shoulder for a while. It was a winsome, uncomfortable stance, and when she turned the page of the paper, he took it as his cue to return to the table.

They sat and read, Emma the current affairs, Dexter the sport, both taut with irritation while Emma tutted and shook her head in that maddening way she sometimes had. The Butler Inquiry into the origins of the war dominated the headlines, and he could feel her building up to some kind of topical political comment. He focussed on the latest from Wimbledon, but—

‘It’s weird, isn’t it? How there’s this war going on, and virtually no protest? I mean you think there’d be marches or something, wouldn’t you?’

That tone of voice riled him too. It was the one he remembered from all those years ago: her student voice, superior and self-righteous. Dexter made an uncontentious noise, neither challenging nor accepting, in the hope that this would be enough. Time passed, pages of the newspaper were turned.

‘I mean you’d think there’d be something like the anti-Vietnam movement or something, but nothing. Just that one march, then everyone shrugged and went home. Even the students aren’t protesting!’

‘What’s it got to do with the students?’ he said, mildly enough, he thought.

‘It’s traditional, isn’t it? That students are politically engaged. If we were still students, we’d be protesting.’ She went back to the paper. ‘ Iwould anyway.’

She was provoking him. Fine, if that’s what she wanted. ‘So why aren’t you?’

She looked at him sharply. ‘What?’

‘Protesting. If you feel so strongly.’

‘That’s exactly my point. Maybe I should be! That was exactly my observation! If there was some kind of cohesive movement. .’

He returned to the paper, resolving to keep quiet but unable to do so. ‘Or maybe it’s because people don’t mind.’

‘What?’ She looked at him, eyes narrowed.

‘The war. I mean if people were really affronted by it there’d be protests, but maybe people are glad that he’s gone. I don’t know if you noticed, Em, but he wasn’t a very nice man. .’

‘You can be glad Saddam’s gone and still be against the war.’

‘That’s my point. It’s ambiguous, isn’t it?’

‘What, you think it’s a fairlyjust war?’

‘Not menecessarily. People.’

‘But what about you?’ She closed the newspaper, and he felt a genuine sense of unease. ‘What do you think?’

‘What do I think?’

‘What do you think?’

He sighed. Too late now, no turning back. ‘I just think it’s pretty rich that a lot of people on the Left were against the war when the people that Saddam was murdering were exactly the people the Left should have been supporting.’

‘Like who?’

‘Trade unionists, feminists. Homosexuals.’ Should he say the Kurds? Was that correct? He decided to chance it. ‘The Kurds!’

Emma snuffled righteously. ‘Oh, you think we’re fighting this war to protect trade unionists?’ You think Bush invaded because he was worried about the plight of Iraqi women? Or gays?’

‘All I’m saying is that the anti-war march would have had a bit more moral credibility if the same people had protested against the Iraqi regime in the first place! They protested about apartheid, why not Iraq?’

‘. . and Iran? And China and Russia and North Korea and Saudi Arabia! You can’t protest against everyone.’

‘Why not? You used to!’

‘That’s beside the point!’

‘Is it? When I first knew you, all you didwas boycott things. You couldn’t eat a bloody Mars Bar without a lecture on personal responsibility. It’s not my fault you’ve become complacent. .’

He returned to his ridiculous sports news with a little self-satisfied smirk, and Emma felt her face beginning to redden. ‘I have not become. . Don’t change the subject! The point is, it’s ridiculous to claim that this war is about human rights, or WMDs or anything like that. It’s about one thing and one thing only. .’